•Meghan|18|Leo|NY•
idk what my theme is anymore i’m just posting shit i like now
*PSA: there may be some triggering posts*
I never thought so many people would notice my weightloss.
I only thought my closest friends and family would notice but since losing all this weight so many people have come up to me asking me how i lost weight and that i look great.
People i have never talked to at school and work come up to me and compliment me on my weightloss, not only girls but also guys. Its so weird that people notice all of the sudden…..
This morning I had one of those moments you only read about in thinspo imagines.
I woke up next to my boyfriend wearing one of his shirts, it’s huge on me and makes me feel tiny and delicate compared to him. He had to get going so I walked him out to his car and he did the most amazing thing. He picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his torso and he kissed me hard. He didn’t wince or struggle to hold me, just smiled and spun me around a bit. I felt tiny, delicate, light, and for once I felt perfect.
If you call pedophilia a kink please unfollow me and never talk to me again
Isn’t it disgusting that 23 people just unfollowed me
Unfollow me too
this goes double if you call paedophilia a disability. unfollow me twice
and if you call pedophilia an “orientation” or in any way compare it to being LGBP+ you can unfollow, delete your blog, and set yourself on fire.
I just lost 50 followers.. bye
clearing out the trash
GO ON AND S M A S H THAT UNFOLLOW BUTTON
BUHBYE U McNASTIES
I’ve seen this circulating forever and genuinely thought “no way do I have any of them following me” until this week when it turned out I had all these fuckin “MAP” (pedophile) followers sad to find out I’m an “anti” (normal person)
Please leave and also please get guinea worm.
I really hope no one that follows me is like this but for real, if you are, please unfollow.
Ditto
Buh bye, no thanks
Csa survivor with zero time, patience, or tolerance for pedos/MAPs/apologists/whateverthefuck you sick fucks are calling yourselves.
Why eating is hard for me
ana can clear my skin,
ana can convince people to pick me up,
ana can fit me into size zero,
ana can tell everyone i’m gorgeous,
ana can turn jealous heads towards me,
all I have to do is be her best friend…
Just because I have anorexia doesn’t mean I don’t eat. But just because I eat something doesn’t mean that I can eat more. I can only eat what the anorexia lets me eat. If I eat half of a sandwich it doesn’t mean I can eat the whole thing. I can only eat it because I’ve spent ages calculating how many calories are in it so the anorexia allows me to eat it but it doesn’t allow me to eat the other half it doesn’t want me to because that doubles the amount of calories I’ve consumed it doubles the amount of fat carbs everything is doubled.
Me: ugh im like so hungry
Ana: drink some water ;)
Me: im actually craving something
Ana: like what
Me: idk like waffles a hamburger cherries pies bananas cheddar pasta pizza bread jam sushi yakisoba ramen 2 whole coconuts 5 truckLOADS OF CHIPS 50 BASKETS OF FRENCH FRIES THE KITCHEN SINK THE NEIGHBOR’S FIRST BORN CHILD and a little bit of ketchup
Ana: … bitch what the fuck
Why did I laugh?
I went shopping today for the first time in aaaaages. I need some shorts because I live in Florida and it’s as hot as Satan’s balls. There was a girl helping me and I picked up a size 7 (because that’s what I was last summer) and she just looked at me. I was embarrassed until she handed me a size 00 and said “try this size instead.” And guys, IT FIT! Never give up on your goals, because it was the best feeling ever
I’m doing it for:
💀The surprised stares when people see me after a long time
💀To not have to jump up and down to put on jeans
💀The thighs that never touch unless I want them to
💀To walk around in public and know that people aren’t saying things about me being fat behind my back
💀Him to see me as more than just a fat girl he sees around school
💀The dainty wrists and aesthetic collarbones
💀My hip bones to exceed my perfectly flat stomach
💀To finally not be know as the ‘fat goth friend’ but instead as the ‘Dainty Girl in Black’
💀The aesthetic
💀The envious looks from girls who looked down on me
💀The ability to be picked up and swung around with ease
💀People asking if I’ve eaten today
💀The extra free time I would usually spend eating
💀Money for food instead spent on me or my friends
1.) when I complained to a friend about being fat she said “you’re not fat, you’re…plump!” I remember how my heart sank into my stomach.
2.) one time when I was younger, I had my friend 3 way call the guy I liked to ask about me. he said “it’s not that I don’t like her, but she’s just so ugly and FAT (literally emphasized the word fat) I could never date her. The guys would never let me hear the end of it.” I hung up and cried for hours. I refused to go to school for 3 days.
3.) I was just walking to the bus like normal and a boy began following behind me chanting “one tubby tubby, two tubby tubby.” Everyone laughed along with him.
4.) a friend of mine at lunch was staring at me as I ate one day, and then mentioned offhandedly “you know, you’d be really pretty if you just lost weight.” I ate the rest of my lunch in the bathroom by myself.
5.) a guy friend of mine was mentioning what the other boys at school thought of each of us. he told me how hot they all thought my best friend was. when I asked what they said about me, he just paused and laughed uncomfortably before saying he had to go to class. I didn’t go to class because I couldn’t clean the streams of mascara off my face.
6.) when I began eating less at lunch, my guy friends would tell me I ate like a bird, and how cute it was. I remember how amazing that felt. those words made me stronger.
7.) when I returned to church the first time after losing 60 lbs, my friends jaw dropped and said “wow, you lost a TON of weight.” those words felt so good I nearly cried.
8.) my first day of freshman year of high school, my friends all approached me, amazed at my transformation. “You got hot!” “Who knew you were so pretty!” I felt on top of the world.
9.) I remember walking past boys and watching their jaws drop and their heads turn all the way around to see me. I remember hearing gasps. I remember a boy stuttering as he told me I was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen.
10.) at one point, I developed a crush on our schools quarterback. he was easily one of the most popular boys in school. I still believed I would never be good enough to get his attention. around the time I reached 90 lbs, he asked me to homecoming. I remember how powerful I felt. as if I were a queen standing next to the king I rightfully earned.
I want to feel this power again. I want to feel adored and loved. I never want to feel these thing I felt so long ago, and I am ashamed I let myself get back to here. But I’ll fix this. I’ve done it once before. I will reclaim my throne.
